It's been 365 days since I saw you take a breath. A hair longer since I heard your voice. I miss you. And as we approach the holiday season, my heart yearns for those gone ahead.
I've been "celebrating" in the face of unspeakable loss since my 20th year on the planet. There hasn't been one milestone event in the last 23 years where someone significant has not been missing. I don't type those words to diminish the loss. However, I will say I'm somewhat of an expert in looking back with bittersweet memories while cherishing the here and the now. But only because of the grace of God. Only because of the hope I have in Jesus.
To Diana, my adopted mom, my mentor, beloved mother-in-love, Gabba,
Today, I remember and celebrate using your own words. (You always said I turned your words and used them against you.) LoL. Maybe God will let you have a peek today, so you can turn to Carol Hunter and say, "Look at her. Still sassing."
March 19, 2006
Focal Verse: John 15: 7-8
Jesus, I want so much to bear fruit for your kingdom. I want to walk in such victory that people will ask what's my secret to such joy. Your Word says if I ask You these things they will be done for me. I want them to be done for You, that God the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost might be glorified. I understand that I must decrease so You will increase and pray You will help me be willing to do so, to not expect or desire recognition, but to give You all the credit. Lord, I've loved this study of your Word. Help me to continue to thirst for knowledge about what You have planned for the world and what your Word imparts. I ask that You bless my circle of important believers. Norma, Amanda, and Liz. Keep them filled to overflowing with Your love and the hope of Your calling. Help each of them to continue to a light in this dark world and help them to lead their families to You. Go with me this day, Lord. Forgive my sins and cleanse me from unrighteousness.
You are cherished, loved, and remembered. Your legacy and testimony lives on. Love you.
Amanda Williams is a forty-year old wife and mother of two who can still swing her pony tail and display just a tad of sass. She is also a Jesus loving girl who realizes she is nothing without the One who saved her. Amanda has two degrees specializing in serving students with special needs and is currently working in the field of Leadership Development. She is a Christian author, speaker, blogger, and publisher who loves serving beside her husband at her local place of worship, First Baptist Church of Ocala.