“And David was greatly distressed, for the people spoke of stoning him, because all the people were bitter in soul, each for his sons and daughters. But David strengthened himself in the Lord his God.” 1 Samuel 30:6 ESV
I can relate to David here. It says that he was 'greatly distressed because the men were talking of stoning him'. It doesn't say that they were going to stone him, just that they were talking about it. No actions, just words and he was tripping out.
I am thankful for this verse because it makes me realize that even 'a man after God's own heart' had a hard time not freaking out over overthinking some rumors and that David was human, just like me.
My hometown of Keystone Heights is really small (1 1/2 red lights), about 14,000 churches (okay, not really), and everyone knows everything about everyone else. Let's just say people like to talk, although you can't blame them, there isn't much else to do! Well after I moved away, my life became talk of the town, at least it felt that way to me. I had been living a rockstar lifestyle and I was terrified to come back to my home church and be "verbally stoned". I knew they knew the way I had been living & it wasn't very holy to say the least. Just like David, I was distressed over what I thought people were going to do. My imagination ran wild. Would I be shunned, ignored, confronted? The list in my head went on and on. I had no clue how I was going to face all these people who had once been so proud of me but now I had disappointed. But God did.
"But David found strength in the Lord his God."
If it had just been me, I would've never walked back into that church and faced my fears, but I found strength in my God. I didn't have to do it alone.
I wish that I could tell you that everyone welcomed me with open arms & hearts and for the most part I was. My home church is amazing and has always been so supportive of me, even through my "wild" phase, but I have come to realize that my worth & value is not found in the people of that church or anywhere else for that matter. My reason for living is my God, who covers me with His grace, love, protection and promise to never leave me.
When your strength comes from God, it doesn't matter what you THINK might happen, He will get you through & He won't leave you. David didn't get stoned and I didn't get verbally stoned walking back into my home church. God is faithful. Life comes with bumps & bruises, sometimes awful things happen but no matter how weak and distressed we get, we have to find our way back to the Rock, our strength, that will never move or leave us in the storms.
No matter what thoughts or fears you are facing today, this week, or this year, don't forget where your strength lies to overcome them!
Amanda Williams is a forty-year old wife and mother of two who can still swing her pony tail and display just a tad of sass. She is also a Jesus loving girl who realizes she is nothing without the One who saved her. Amanda has two degrees specializing in serving students with special needs and is currently working in the field of Leadership Development. She is a Christian author, speaker, blogger, and publisher who loves serving beside her husband at her local place of worship, First Baptist Church of Ocala.