Jeromy says I need a "Handler". I asked him, "After almost twenty years of marriage, don't you think you're my handler?" He calmly replies, "Oh no. We've made it this far because I haven't tried to be your handler. But you do need one. I'll handle the handler."
Huh. Maybe he's right.
Who am I kidding? Of course he's right. I'm the Queen of my own agenda. I'm one of those annoying people whose motivation to figure something out is how much "I want it" is in me. If there's enough, I'll find a way. I have strapped on my cape and taken on projects and to do lists I've had no business touching. The result-Nasty crash and burn sites not worth delving into outside of my prayer closet.
However, aging does give you hindsight. Let's hope so anyway. I'm learning to let God be my Handler. My book of past failures all have one thing in common: Amanda's timing did not match up with God's timing. Looking to God for my tick tock is crucial; otherwise, I go all willy nilly and work myself up into a good ole fashioned fit.
Here are some of my favorite verses to remind me about God's perfect timing:
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens.
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him, it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.
Wait. 4 letters that pack a punch, demonstrated every day in my routine. My typical work out these days is a 2 mile run, lots of lunges and planking. Planking is by far the most difficult, proven by the sweat pouring off my forehead. Whereas the other two require motion, planking requires a very still hold. That is what I feel like when I wait on the Lord's timing. As long as I'm in motion I'm safe, it's when I stop, things could get dangerous. That belief is one of those strongholds I've had to allow the Lord to do a "take down" on. Sometimes, the Lord puts us in motion to accomplish His purpose, but sometimes, He wants us quiet and still so He can whisper. So we can hear the tick tock of His divine plan. Lord Jesus, help me to be still. Help me to rest in the knowledge that You've got (fill in the blank.)
Amanda Williams is a forty-year old wife and mother of two who can still swing her pony tail and display just a tad of sass. She is also a Jesus loving girl who realizes she is nothing without the One who saved her. Amanda has two degrees specializing in serving students with special needs and is currently working in the field of Leadership Development. She is a Christian author, speaker, blogger, and publisher who loves serving beside her husband at her local place of worship, First Baptist Church of Ocala.