“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation: the old has gone, the new has come.” -2 Corinthians 6:6
As I was waiting on what God was going to lay on my heart on this week, I flipped open my Bible and it opened to page 963 where I had this verse underlined. I have heard this verse repeated hundreds of times in my life growing up, even before I came to know Jesus myself. But it hit me a little bit differently this time...
the old has gone
I know I am in Christ, I know that Jesus paid my debt on the cross and I have made Him King of life. But why do I feel like it is not enough? Why do my old sins still make me feel unworthy of the grace that I have been given?
He loves that he can make me question whether or not God really does love me. He loves that he can plant a seed of doubt into my heart and make me think that I have to do something to earn God’s love. He delights in my insecurities because that is exactly where he hits me, hard, every single time. He wants me to believe that I could never really be “new”.
BUT I AM.
I am new, I am loved, and I am treasured and pursued by the King of the Universe, who chooses me even when I let Satan win and even when I doubt the grace He poured over me. It is almost like I need God to prove to me that He really wasn’t making a mistake when He picked me to love… then I remember the cross.
Coming to Jesus was hard for me, it meant that I had to lay down my selfish desires and continue to do so each and every day. I loved my selfish life, but I was miserable with who I was, I had no hope.
We are all born sinners. We all have this overwhelming desire to please our flesh. We seek money, power, acceptance, love and anything that we think will make us feel satisfied, yet we never are. We make mistakes, we hurt people we love, and do things that we never thought we would do. But what is the point? What is the end result? So we can die with a few more dollars in our pocket or pretend to be someone we aren’t so that we feel accepted?
This life is hard and it is filled with struggles that can completely overwhelm us if we let them. But God wants so much more for you and I than what we settle for without Him. He wants to make our hearts new in Him, He desires to make us burn for His kingdom, and show His love to others.
Maybe you think you can’t because you have done unforgivable things, or you are scared or you think that God doesn’t care about you. I thought all those things too, and if we are being honest there are still days that I allow some of those thoughts to cross my mind. I am really good at grabbing onto my past with tight white knuckles, refusing to let go and feeling sorry for myself because I feel like that is all God sees when He looks at me anyway. It is easy to feel that way but it is not true because I am not that girl anymore.
When God made me new, He started pulling the things out of me that didn’t bring Him glory and let’s be real, I am super stubborn, so I did not let go without a fight. Here I am almost 3 years later and God is still pulling out the “me” parts of me and replacing them with Him. Sometimes it hurts and it’s painful and other times it is sweet and gentle but I know He is doing it for my good.
Jesus saved me of my sins. He made me one of His own. But I don’t think He will ever stop making me new. I am a work in progress and will be until the day I die because with everything old that I am giving Him, He gives me something else to show the world Him.
So don’t be discouraged if you feel like you can't get rid of the old fast enough, God knows what He is doing and He is slowly but surely making you into something beautiful for His glory.
& if you want to be made new, take the leap and trust the One who created you to make you into someone you never knew you could be without Him.
Have a great week and let go of your old so you can stop wasting your time God has given you to be NEW!
Amanda Williams is a forty-year old wife and mother of two who can still swing her pony tail and display just a tad of sass. She is also a Jesus loving girl who realizes she is nothing without the One who saved her. Amanda has two degrees specializing in serving students with special needs and is currently working in the field of Leadership Development. She is a Christian author, speaker, blogger, and publisher who loves serving beside her husband at her local place of worship, First Baptist Church of Ocala.