I am a little OCD in the fact that I can't start something new until I've completely finished the task at hand. Yes, I know, I am a weirdo.
If I am folding laundry or doing the dishes or having a heartfelt conversation with a friend or doing pretty much anything, I can't stop until I am completely done. I have no clue why I am this way but it can be good and bad.
It can be a good thing when it comes to my job or housework.. but when it comes to my relationship with Jesus it is frustrating.
I could never complete all my quiet times or do enough reading or praying or praising to be able to say I have finished all that I need to do.
It's like I'm trying to do all I can so that I can feel accomplished and yet I never do.. and then I feel like I have failed and get upset.
I know y'all are probably thinking that I am crazy.. like how could a Christian ever think they could finish their relationship with Christ?! Or even get to a point where I reached enough spiritual maturity to just coast through the rest of this life?!
Well a very dear friend of mine shared with me my problem.. I don't have an eternal mindset but an earthly one.
I am so concerned with this life and what I have to get done, that I forget the whole purpose of being on this earth is to bring God glory.
I'm too concerned about the laundry or how someone made me feel or making sure that I have everything checked off my daily list that I miss the most beautiful things..
The fact that I get to wake up and breathe, that I have a house and food to eat, I have the freedoms to pray & read my Bible openly, be kind to strangers, or share the love of Jesus in the most unlikely places.
My walk with God is always going to be unfinished business because I always will have room to grow, more to learn, & a million other things to trust Him with. I had to take a long look at my heart and see why I was viewing my relationship with Him so selfishly.
I am selfish, as I have admitted to you all so many times, and it is a daily struggle for me to choose God over myself.
Thanks be to the Lord that He never runs out of grace!
Here is my point, the finish line of this earth is the beginning to the whole point of our time here.
I needed to have someone very plainly that my focus was shifted off of God's plan and onto my own agenda of unfinished business.
Eternity is the end goal, not just for us to enjoy but for us to bring as many souls with us as we can. This Earth is just our stepping stone into the glory of God.
I want to change my focus to eternity and to run full force into the promises that God has for me. No matter how many things I "finish" it will never mean anything if it isn't a part of God's plan. So here is to being okay with my life holding unfinished scripture readings, unfinished praises, unfinished prayers & an unfinished desire for His glory to be shown on this Earth.
Let's have a great week and keep on our eyes on eternity!
Amanda Williams is a forty-year old wife and mother of two who can still swing her pony tail and display just a tad of sass. She is also a Jesus loving girl who realizes she is nothing without the One who saved her. Amanda has two degrees specializing in serving students with special needs and is currently working in the field of Leadership Development. She is a Christian author, speaker, blogger, and publisher who loves serving beside her husband at her local place of worship, First Baptist Church of Ocala.