"For such a time as this . . . "
That's the phrase that kept coming to mind as I read Julie's first person account of her story.
I believe God placed me on this launch team to read her words for such a time as this.
The subtitle of this book is every beat surrendered to our unchanging God.
Most believers follow Jesus faithfully and claim an eternal perspective.
But . . .
Do they live that perspective out in their day to day journey on this side of heaven?
Julie Manning, a young, healthy, athletic woman, chooses to leave a life in the corporate world to pursue a degree in nursing to care for children with heart disease. Upon giving birth to her second child, doctors noticed something was wrong—not with the baby, but with Julie. Six weeks later she was diagnosed with active heart failure. Moving through life, a young mother, adored by her husband and two baby boys, attempts to wrap her brain around this harsh reality—any beat could be her last.
Julie's story, told through her eyes, is interspersed with gut-wrenching and honest journal entries dated to the time of her diagnosis and beyond, along with letters written to her boys.
In the sharing of her testimony, Julie's heart and soul bleeds out on each page. She talks of living intentionally, cherishing each day with God-infused purpose, all the while viewing life with an eternal perspective.
This book contains many highlight-worthy passages. Truly, during a time of loss in my own life, it was a gift to be able to read.
Here is a passage that sets up the book, taken from her journal entry dated August 26, 2009:
Lord, you are humbling me. My weaknesses are showing, and I am learning I am indeed not Superwoman. I cannot go through this life without You and the help of others. I received a phone call yesterday afternoon that my heart is failing. What???!!! I am really in complete shock, and I feel like I am talking about someone else. Not me. Not me—not the girl who takes care of herself. Not the athlete. Not the one who cares for others on the brink of death in the hospital. I'm supposed to be the one caring for others, not the one being cared for.
Lord, I am scared. Really scared.
The above excerpt demonstrates the tone of the book: transparent and real.
Whether or not this is similar to your story, My Heart is a must-read about handing your greatest fears over to the Lord and depending on Him for each and every beat. It's about seeing God go before you and witnessing His perfect timing and complete control.
You can find this book here.
Amanda Williams is a forty-year old wife and mother of two who can still swing her pony tail and display just a tad of sass. She is also a Jesus loving girl who realizes she is nothing without the One who saved her. Amanda has two degrees specializing in serving students with special needs and is currently working in the field of Leadership Development. She is a Christian author, speaker, blogger, and publisher who loves serving beside her husband at her local place of worship, First Baptist Church of Ocala.