There are times when I just need to unload, unhinge, and be undone.
Times when my heart thumps wildly in my chest and every cell screams to let loose and hold nothing back.
With whom you might ask? Who is willing to see the ugly and not run for the hills?
Nope times five.
All human. All have limits. And none of them have the power to fix me.
I let loose with God Almighty. You might call it prayer. I call it talking to God. Relationship. Sharing the good, the bad, and especially the ugly. You don't think God does ugly? Oh, friend, allow me to assure you, God embraces the ugly—especially when it spews from one of His children targeting Him. Why? One word. Well two. Unexplainable love.
In other words, when I need to step away from the sanitary rainbows and roses version of my life and embrace the full panoramic view of the breathtaking vistas coupled with the muck and mire only found in the valleys, I find Him.
What does fulling embracing faith, yet living in a state of transparency look like?
Years ago, I tried bottling all the junk welling up inside of me and capping it—never to be seen again.
An implosion followed by an explosion of gargantuan proportions taught me an effective lesson.
The end of me is a scary place to be.
The end of me is the beginning of Him working through me, and that my friends, is a force to be reckoned with.
Why? Easy. He can handle my wrath. He knows what to do with my crazy. Y'all, there are times when my prayer life sounds like a one-sided episode of Jerry Springer. For real.
However, that honesty unleashes a tenderness only known in a Father-Child relationship.
So, can I encourage you to push aside the thees, thous, yeas, and amens? Just talk. Be real. Get messy. Don't be afraid to get on your knees, bury your hands in the tear-soaked mud, and ask for guidance, peace, discernment, or maybe just enough umph to get through the next minute, hour, or day?
After all, the Living Water ain't afraid of a little dirt.
Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, 7casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. I Peter 5:6-7
Amanda Williams is a forty-year old wife and mother of two who can still swing her pony tail and display just a tad of sass. She is also a Jesus loving girl who realizes she is nothing without the One who saved her. Amanda has two degrees specializing in serving students with special needs and is currently working in the field of Leadership Development. She is a Christian author, speaker, blogger, and publisher who loves serving beside her husband at her local place of worship, First Baptist Church of Ocala.