If I could look at a map of my footsteps, there are paths laden with regret.
Squishy footprints visible in the mud of the messy.
I do realize those footsteps led me to where I am today, and praise Jesus for His ability to guide me through the zig zagging of my choosing into His arms. But what I'm learning is sometimes He sets us back on those paths of regret, not to re-live those moments and make the same choices, but to see circumstances through eyes made new. And in that moment, there is healing.
I find that quite miraculous. You see, in order to go back to the painful scene of sin, a wall of fear must be knocked down. And my superwoman cape proved fallible years ago, so the wall stayed in place. Until Jesus, that is. Then, over time and learning to trust Him, the wall crumbled and the rubble disappeared. Now, I can walk down paths with confidence and know I'm not alone. I can sing songs of praise in the light shined on the darkness of the past, and rejoice in being able to move forward.
A sweet friend tagged me in a post this morning, gifting me with the lyrics to this song. Find rest and embrace healing, friends. I'm far from perfect, but I've checked into the hospital of grace and forgiveness to find rest. Join me?
Amanda Williams is a forty-year old wife and mother of two who can still swing her pony tail and display just a tad of sass. She is also a Jesus loving girl who realizes she is nothing without the One who saved her. Amanda has two degrees specializing in serving students with special needs and is currently working in the field of Leadership Development. She is a Christian author, speaker, blogger, and publisher who loves serving beside her husband at her local place of worship, First Baptist Church of Ocala.