Who is a hard-to-forgive person/situation? How did forgiving them shape you?
The answer is me.
Showing myself grace and believing Jesus has been a journey filled with long talks and gentle, yet poignant reminders between me and my Savior.
The short list.
I have forgiven me for:
Turning away when I should have leaned in.
Showing disrespect instead of respect.
Not saying I'm sorry and meaning it.
Saying I'm sorry and not meaning it.
Shrugging my shoulders instead of allowing them to be embraced in a hug.
Rolling my eyes when I should have been laser focused.
Spending time constructing walls trying to keep out Who was already in.
Opening doors to destructive relationships.
Closing doors to constructive relationships.
Saying yes when I should have said no.
Saying no when I should have said yes.
Giving away what wasn't mine to give.
Harboring what wasn't mine to keep.
Cowering to fear.
Allowing my emotions to dictate my decisions.
Holding tears in.
Listening to the wrong voice.
Ignoring the right voice.
Speaking up when I should have shut up.
Staying quiet when I should have spoken up.
Celebrating my words while ignoring Yours.
Hearing but not listening.
Listening but not doing.
Believing grace has quite simply made me look less like Amanda and more like Jesus, smoothing the prickly edges that sliced my heart over and over again. I bled guilt, resentment, rage, and profound sorrow for years, long past the moment when conviction turned my heart toward repentance.
I covered my head with shame instead of turning my face up and allowing myself to drink in merciful, life-giving, thirst-quenching water.
Forgive you and let the healing begin.
Learning how to see yourself as God sees you is the first step in learning how to love others.
Moving with Scribbles,
My strength is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
Amanda Williams is a forty-year old wife and mother of two who can still swing her pony tail and display just a tad of sass. She is also a Jesus loving girl who realizes she is nothing without the One who saved her. Amanda has two degrees specializing in serving students with special needs and is currently working in the field of Leadership Development. She is a Christian author, speaker, blogger, and publisher who loves serving beside her husband at her local place of worship, First Baptist Church of Ocala.