Next week will mark 21 years since I've looked at my father. Since I've heard his voice. Since I've touched his hands. Since I've been wrapped in his arms.
I am now 41 years old, so I have officially lived longer without him on this planet, than with him. Odd feeling. I am one year from being the same age they were when they died. It's a different place to be.
Material things taken into consideration, there wasn't much that I wanted to remember them by. A few things here and there, one very special cook book my mom used. But there was one thing of my dad's, one thing all these years later that I would love to have. My father's Bible. Not possible, because my father carried his Bible everywhere with him. It was an extra appendage. And it was sitting beside him in the car the day of his accident. Therefore, it was in no shape to be passed along. It lies next to him until Jesus calls.
If you've ever lost someone close to you, it's not so much the big things you miss. It's the little things. So, when I came across a treasure a couple of days ago, not many people can understand my excitement. A text book from seminary. A text book that belonged to my father. A text book filled my with father's handwriting. I'm reading it, amused that he got a B plus. Amused that when he went through this course he was eight years younger than I am now. Amused that I am more interested in the actual curve of the letters than what is actually written. The sight of that cursive reminds me of his hands, which reminds me of him. It is a sweet, sweet feeling.
Then, I look over at my study Bible. Filled again with my Father's words. Words that are living and breathing. Words that aren't buried next to a dead Jesus in a coffin. Words to be treasured. Words that I often take for granted.
Amanda Williams is a forty-year old wife and mother of two who can still swing her pony tail and display just a tad of sass. She is also a Jesus loving girl who realizes she is nothing without the One who saved her. Amanda has two degrees specializing in serving students with special needs and is currently working in the field of Leadership Development. She is a Christian author, speaker, blogger, and publisher who loves serving beside her husband at her local place of worship, First Baptist Church of Ocala.