"I have no special talents. I am only passionately curious." Albert Einstein
"I would rather die of passion than boredom." Vincent van Gogh
"Nothing great in the world has ever been done without passion." Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel
"When you set yourself on fire, people love to come and see you burn." John Wesley
So, what exactly is passion? Excuse my word girl nerd status for a moment and go with me to dictionary.com. Passion is:
As you can plainly see, to possess passion—to be passionate—is no joke.
Traveling back on my timeline, I attempt to pinpoint the first time I experienced this intense emotional high/low.
(Puberty must not be considered, because honest-to-Pete (whoever Pete is), I was capable of "any powerful or compelling emotion or feeling, as love or hate" every day of my life for five years towards anything or anyone at any point or any time, depending on the state of my topsy-turvy hormones who absolutely had control of my ship.)
So . . . we'll just skip that part.
Let's go to college, shall we?
I had the privilege of being mentored by a high school teacher who taught students with special needs. Until that point, I didn't know words/phrases such as processing disorder, learning disability, and dyslexia existed. Seeds were planted in the what do you want to do when you grow up soil. Upon entering post-secondary education, the list of majors overwhelmed me as I entertained journalism, pre-law, and English.
However, I often thought back to my time with that one teacher, and an intangible—deep down inside my gut, stirred. More questions answered, more classes attended, and more exposure through volunteer work only fanned the flame, and soon I was committed in my heart and soul to becoming a teacher for those with special needs.
The burning in my belly translated to this: I desperately wanted to be an advocate for those with abilities that are masked by what some may call disabilities. These people didn't require my pity, they needed my passion, my overwhelming desire—to dig deep and aid them in the process of unlocking coping skills to set them up for success when learning.
My reward? To watch many knock down that wall of I can't and embrace with wide open arms I did it, I can do it, and I will do it. The mountaintop moments when I stood and witnessed, giddy with pride, as my darlings kicked those chains aside and soared to endless possibilities. Those seconds will forever play on the highlight reel of my life .
I am, of course, passionate about my marriage. I giggle this morning over my coffee as I can hear my teenagers groan and mutter through covered faces, Mama please don't go there. Some of our friends actually read what you write.
Allllllright. Sigh. I won't go there. See how much I love you?
Seriously though. Over twenty years into this 'til death do us part thing, the I feel sick when he walks into a room because my heart is kerthumping out of my chest emotion has taken a backseat to we made a commitment to love and to cherish and God bless it, we will do this no. matter. what. Grit through the hard times, cherish the mundane, and Superman/Lois Lane over those peaks. Amen. Moving on.
Raise your hand if you know what Mama Bear Syndrome is? Yep. So, there's that kind of passion. That protective, don't hurt my people or I'll come at you with claws unsheathed and a hair-blowing, spit-spewing roar that will rock your ever-loving world instinct the operates outside the realm of reason.
Leadership development, working with young people, ministry, friendship, speaking, crafting stories, reading what is good and right and true.
Number 11 brings me to a screeching halt with my all about me examples.
The last twelve hours of Jesus's life.
The choice He made. The sacrifice given in the face of incomparable pain—emotional and physical. My passions pale in comparison to the passion He displayed for me in response to His passionate desire to display obedience toward His Father.
Outside of reason, outside of what makes sense.
As I get older, wiser, somewhat more in tuned to what matters and what doesn't, my passion is shaped, defined by clarity of purpose—filtering everything Jesus's words as recorded by John.
34 A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. 35 By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.”
Ignite my passion. Let it be true.
Moving with Scribbles,
Amanda Williams is a forty-year old wife and mother of two who can still swing her pony tail and display just a tad of sass. She is also a Jesus loving girl who realizes she is nothing without the One who saved her. Amanda has two degrees specializing in serving students with special needs and is currently working in the field of Leadership Development. She is a Christian author, speaker, blogger, and publisher who loves serving beside her husband at her local place of worship, First Baptist Church of Ocala.